so the past few days, tim and i have realized how much being adults is overrated. it all started with figuring out all the taxes to be filed-so not in our favor. we piled that on top of tim's car having to be fixed TWICE and my car windshield having to be replaced last week. oh, don't forget. i still don't have a job and we've successfully used every last bit of anything resembling our savings from Virginia.
it's still raining and cold in Indiana, and I miss my friends and family like crazy. don't get me wrong, I have complete confidence in God's plans for us and this move. i think. but God, i'm tired of staying home all day feeling unproductive. i'm tired of feeling like if i only had a job, we could actually deal with all of this. i'm tired of being told that i'm "not allowed to leave a voicemail" by snotty school secretaries. and i'm tired of hearing, "check back with us at the end of the summer."
i'm sorry to vent all of this, and really sound very unlike a real adult, but to be honest....money sucks.
i wish for a time and place where we all live together with people we love the most, do what we love, and have just enough to be content. that's so not a world i'm familiar with, and i'm learning very quickly that it needs to be.
until then, long live the cooking shows, playing with the dog, and the continuous online search for any school systems within 30 miles that i may have missed.
cheers. hope you all are having a happy tax season.
girl, I feel you. I'm sure everything will work out for us...hopefully sooner than later.
ReplyDeleteyep, the real world sucks...i am watching the real world awards show right now ironically. anyway, this stuff will always come up no matter how used to being adult you get...you just gotta roll with the punches and remember that God will provide, and in the meantime make the very most of what you do have! you should apply at starbucks and wait it out until the school systems start hiring the end of summer! you'll at least smell good at the end of the work day and probably meet some awesome baristas.
ReplyDeletei'm glad i got to see your lovely face this past weekend. i totally understand what you are going through.... i'm just playing with a baby instead of a dog :) no but really it does suck and it makes you wonder what the heck you are doing here..... but i have come to learn that even if you aren't in a place very long there was a reason God has sent you there. the fun part is figuring out why. the more time i spend in nashville the more reason i discover why i am there. being alone all day is hard and being content with it is even harder, but maybe God gave you this time alone for a reason. you never know, but that is just how i have looked at it in my life. almost like i was giving time to truly get to know myself and him. but all that aside i agree with betsy and i know you would have fun at starbucks! i love you and hope to see you soon. (nicole)
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ReplyDeletejust thought i'd let you know that i have been reading your blog... or stalking you via the blog, whichever seems more truthful! and i added your blog to my page... if that's not okay let me know. as far as jobs and whatnot goes, perhpas my latest blog could be an encouragement to you. but if not, know i have been praying for you and your hunt. :)